a phone call from an old friend i've not heard from in a long time...being able to spend all day saturday with my son (just us two!)....enjoying another day on this blessed planet!

this room is a storm
books papers littered about
things splattered like rain


lh

starting today i will repeat the 5 remembrances and learn  to practice non attachment through meditation.  I like this version of the Buddha's Five Remembrances, offered by Thich Nhat Hanh in The Plum Village Chanting Book (Parallax Press, 1991). :


I am of the nature to grow old. There is no way to escape growing old.

I am of the nature to have ill health. There is no way to escape ill health.

I am of the nature to die. There is no way to escape death.

All that is dear to me and everyone I love are of the nature to change. There is no way to escape being separated from them.

My actions are my only true belongings. I cannot escape the consequences of my actions. My actions are the ground upon which I stand.

as i watch my hands and yet my fingers
its love that hears my thoughts that linger
the rest is light
the pain is free
i learned to love and be set free

 
pain prevention
lost illusion
reduced - no fusion
avoid the confusion
no gain
no pain
alone i remain
 

walls stay up
to avoid
inclusion
prevent illusion
contain senses
avoid the confusion
abstain from collusion

at times i cherish,
 relish being alone
but then its my baine
i'm lonely but not alone
 there's always someone here
but
not here 
my life is full but
empty
my children are my joy
so
what
is missing..?

sunshine and rain and weathered  friends that come and go;
 friends that stay ,
friends that aren't afraid or unwilling to return;

the wind! the wind moving the trees and that sound.....
the rush and roar of its power,
 its ability to cool my skin and refresh my soul..

the pencil lead that returns with 2 clicks of my thumb after i've pressed too hard,
 
the wind
is pleasing me right now;
it demands my attention and is refreshing my soul;
giving me goosebumps that arouse me;
i love the wind and what it brings;
yearnings; change; relief; storms; rain clouds; renewal.
blessed breeze. 

tears now -
to remind me of what was and every moment that i recall...
pain shame joy relief love sorrow pride angst loss and hope.
 
hope most of all..

reflected within a cottonwood seed flying magically throught the air coming directly to me then wisking away again -
teasing me with its fickleness of flight...

like the possibility of love returning to my life...

i am honored to be included as one of the newest Zambassador's for Zaadz!  i've been able to add a couple of local whole food stores and one local yoga studio so far...  (where there were zero - now there are 3 listings!)  yippie skippy!

finding local Zevents... now that's gonna be a tuffy here in the corner of MO! but, i hope therefore i seek...

namaste~

 

living in sw missouri ... its no secret....

 you might expect (and you'd be correct!) that we are isolated/insulated from change and (most folks) are perfectly content to be 'that a way'.  i have tried several times and failed several times in my life to 'give up meat' and adopt a vegetarian diet.  to change the lifestyle in which i've been raised. being raised catholic, the only day we didn't have meat was on friday's!! 

the other day i was thumbing through my yoga journal and saw ZAADZ page... it grabbed me! i had to know what this is all about!  i am proud to say i joined immediately once i read a bit on the web..i am humbled to admit there is so much to learn! 

my journey is in its infancy.  i've always wanted to 'make a difference' with my life; i think the zaadz community is where i am meant to be!

thanks to all for the loving welcome and offered support.  what a warm feeling of community!  i'm off to read, again!!

namaste~~ 

lori